Friday 17 June 2011
Metamorphosis.
So here is a story for some of you guys out there who have been struggling all this time.
It is all started with a typical heartbroken boy who seeks comfort in food. He eats and he eats and he eats to fill the void in his heart. But no matter how much he eats the loneliness keep creeping on. The comfort once he seeks for turn into a nightmare that plunge him further into self loathing and depression abyss.
Ridicule by his family and relative. Compared to other people and being the last option for everything. Being rejected again and again until every single shred of self esteem is gone. He laughs it off and pretending that he is happy. Smiley face plastered on his face and he found that mocking himself and making jokes as a defense mechanism.
He went on through life by deceiving himself until he met a friend. Who is somewhat not your typical rainbow and sunny sunshine kind of guy. His tongue is made from a thousand viper venom, his polite words are barbed with sharp swords and he is someone who discriminates toward size and shape. He is an epitome of tough love. Some of his quote that bitch slap him awake are:
“Aren’t fat a disease?”
“Those who say real people have curve doesn’t know that they don’t live longer, happier and better quality of life”
“If I’m fat, I know I can lose it back, and if I’m ugly there are plenty of ways to become beautiful again. But if you are fat, ugly and lazy, hell knows nothing is going to change”
Cruel and evil as it may seems, the friend actually care about the boy, they are best friend until now. He makes the boy realize that nothing good is coming from being a 114kg oversize boy who is in his teenage hood. All the disease, diabetes, high blood pressure, and heart attack is not something that could be play with especially when the friend learn it from his experience losing someone dear in his life because of that.
All the walking, DDR-ing, bowling, and window shopping (imagine walking all the way from KLCC to Times Square then to Mid Valley and they walk through every nook and cranny of every level of the every mall) did help a bit in shedding his weight. Not that much but still it is a progress. But alas, college years end fast and they have to part ways.
But the boy doesn’t lose hope. His determination and will keep him going through. During internship years he pushes himself to the extreme to lose his weight. He admits there are times when he slip and take the easy way. Kneel in front of the toilet bowl every time he eats. Starving for days and taking weird junk supplement in hope to lose his weight more over to gain back his dignity.
There are even times where he just drinks orange lemon juice for a month thanks to an American R&B recording artist, actress and fashion designer who was born and raised in Houston, Texas fad diet, he nearly get himself a stomach ulcer. That is when he knows he is going to stop taking the easy path, because life doesn’t work that way.
He rise up from the bottom and work hard for it. Walking everyday for the first month spending most of the time walking and from then on it turn to jog and at last he runs. Watching what he eats and setting his eating time. He left his wallet everywhere he go and just bring a cardholder and RM5 note for emergencies.
Substitute food with small snacks like peanuts and fruits (In his case he eats tempe and boiled fish meat as substitute for rice). Eating that only once a week and cover it with raisins and fruit for every meal. Switching white bread to wholegrain also helps him and the most important thing a lot of water to replenish the liquid and sustain some energy.
Survive by eating fruits, nuts, and water. Forcing to walk, use the stairs and taking the long route. That is the best bet for him. He doesn’t have to spend money to go to gym and he knows he doesn’t have what it takes to push the limited amount of energy in his body to do extreme exercise.
After four month of going through all of that he finally manage to shed more than half of his weight. From 114kg to 60kg, it is an achievement he would never forget. Graduating his diploma and shocking all of his batch and lecturers. Granted he is not muscular or having pecs. But from size XXXL to XS and S, from pant waist size of 40-50 to 29-30.
I know some of you might disapprove this. But before you slam and criticize this, remember for someone like the boy to went through his college life being a target of jokes and mockery, even being ridicule by his own family to finally have a chance to go to his graduation day without feeling like a mascot in his robes and maybe a chance to finally be happy.
This is not something that I suggest or encourage people to do. I admit that some people might think that it is anorexic and stuff and I never would want anyone else to go through what I went through. The hardship, the tears and the pain that have to be endured are not something to fun to feel. Life is unfair; there will never be an easy way out. Some sacrifices in a temporary period for something is not unreasonable right?
P/S the boy is still trying to lose some weight, people might think it is okay but for him he is still a fat boy. He needs to slay the chubbywocky!
P/P/S still trying to find the fat picture of the boy during college, but to no avail he rarely takes a picture of himself during that era. But according to the best friend he did keep some proof of the boy fat picture in his external, will have to get it from him.
He still have some of his pants and clothes from his huge era though, his mother keep it for unexplained reasons, will try to get a picture of that too.
Labels: Kit, Looks and appearance.
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